I find myself, today, in a state of depression. I have not chosen this state, I have not decided to feel this way, it is what it is. I have tried to meditate, I have read Suttas and discourses, but the depression remains. I do not want to end my life because I know, in my heart, that there are good times ahead. I have my partner, Sharon, who lights up my life every day, I have our three cats that create fun filled havoc all the time, yet I feel depressed. My journey to Nibbana has ground to a halt for the moment, and there is nothing I can do to kick start my lazy butt and get things going again.
God; I sound sorry for myself, yet I am not. Continue reading